my neighbour just gave me this card about friendship thingy. made me think about the fight with her i posted on my blog sometime back. i feel so guilty. erm, i know it's been quite some time since it happened but i'll most probably feel better if i say it..

um, to her..shouldn't have fought over such a small thing. i feel really really guilty now. sheesh. dunno what to say already. speechless. pfft. just about that. ok that was lame but ah whatever. i said it. blegh. stoopid.

just came back from school. eating the lollipop that yu yun got for being emcee during chinese quiz. lame. thanks joey for complimenting on my blog.

nothing much. my brian has officially evaporated. i can't think. can't remember what happened today.

brought my pointe shoes to school today. then me and lis and janice were comparing our shoes during recess. and lis took of her school shoes and socks and put on my capezios and started walking around on pointe in the classroom and i was like 'hey those are new shoes!!' stoopid girl. but anyway they were too tight for lis. can see the flesh bulging out. heh. i'm so bad.

have short term memory. can't remember what i wanted to blog. will blog later if i remember..

my brians kinda refreshed so just came online to blog about random stuff.

just finished tution not long ago. the stoopid air-con kept on blowing into my eye and my contact lense dried up. blah. so uncomfortable.

i can't find my class tee. sheesh. how am i supposed to wear it on thursday?!?!. die. i'm starting to feel so guilty about desiging the horrible desgin. and the class actually voted for it. now everyone from gy has to wear this t-shirt with some crappy design for one whole year.

that stupid girl didn't wave to me today. then me and bea purposely walked past her countless times. she's so blind. shan't say who she is. see if she waves to us tomorrow. haha.

chatting with lis about why her pointe shoes' creaking. don't have time to blog. blegh. bye.

just came back from school. nobody's online yet. sheesh. so boring. i kinda forgot what i wanted to blog about..so yeah i'll just invent crap as i type along.

lis is so blessed. yesterday she went to get her pointe shoes. and the serenade broke when she pointed. she ended up getting suprima strong. and the guy asked her to train without toe pads. lucky thing. such stong feet.

trying to make my own layout. can't find any nice ones. i need to get a nicer one.

tuitions starting soon so better go prepare.

*HUGS* TOTAL!
give tingzhi more *HUGS*

Get hugs of your own

just a short entry for now. chatting with jasmine.

i'm going for dance five times a week. [cheers madly]. grade six class on wednesday. dance at sc followed my major classes at my school. then dance for five hours at sc on sat. [more cheers]. then grade six class on sunday. can't be any happier. haha.

jolyn's birthday is tomorrow. i think. making this lame looking thingy for her. blegh.

can't be bothered to update now. too busy asking jasmine for details about classes.

didn't update yesterday. didn't have time. changed my layout. whee it's so nice. haha. havana nights. dirty dancing. =).

dance was better today. we didn't sit around and laze about. ms deans actually made us dance. did funk odyssey [sp?], the gypsy dance thingy, jumpin' east of java, then two of those jazz dance stuff, ukranian national dance. whn we were doing the funk charlottle saw li en standing outside the dance studio so she burst into fits of laughter and started rolling on the floor. looked like she had fits. stoopid girl. and yue yun kept on giggling during the ukranian national because she had no one's hand to hold. pfft. xu jie pushed my head to touch my knees. and my stomach to touch my legs. i nearly died. and then he pushed my butt down during froggie. youch. after dance went to squash court. rui ling gave me a piece of her birthday cake. so sweet of her. haha. then i went back to the dance studio. and started talking to estelle. with the cake in my hand. so dumb. and then jia ying and dawn walked out. and i was like oh shit how to hide the cake. ahaha that was lame. but it looked so retarted to carry a piece of cake around. blah.

don't feel like going for dance tomorrow. i want to sleep. and study for zi du. can't afford to fail anymore. blegh.

i don't even want to talk about it. there is NO way i am going to pass. yes, i did try my best. but next to jasmine? i stand absolutely 0% chance in passing. she's not my patner. but she's in my group. and she danced exeptionally [sp?] well today. fwack. and the stoopid room was so cold. my muscles got all frozen up. my kicks were so low. my arch didn't look good. my pirouette was even worse- and ms brown made us do it two times. jasmine managed to do perfect pirouettes both left and right. while i landed with a loud boom at the end of each turn. and when i was doing my study she just smiled and smiled and smiled. so embarassing. then i didn't dare to smile. sheesh. she just scribbled comments away on the piece of paper she had. oh please god let me get a distinction. at least just let me pass. blegh. i don't want to get back my results.

lets not let that bother me. nothing i can do. just hope for the best. erm, special thanks to joey, char, en li, nicole, jane, beatrice, ying min, hui min, rui ling, joanne, elizabeth, janice, yue yun, solana, carmen, simone, cheryl, michelle, tasha, tasha's dad, marie, val, aunty esther, priscilla and all the others who wished my good luck for my ballet exam. thanks alot. =)

she is such a freaking bitch. how can people stand her? and her sickening squeaky voice. she thinks that everyone needs to obey her. then the bitch went for dance audition also. and she didn't get in. [duh]. she can't dance at all. i have seen her dance. and my eyes felt like bleeding later on. then for cme project she told me the wrong occupation. now i have to redo it all over again. and that bitch just happens to go to the same dance school as me. thank goodness we're not in the same class. gah. shan't let her piss me off.

my ballet exam is tomorrow. die. but no matter what i must get higher marks than that bitch. she's doing the same classical study as me. must get higher than her. i don't care.

nothing to blog about. making class blog layout. i'm hopeless. brace yourselves people.

whee. haha ok yesterday was sooo fun. in the morning i had dance. [that wasn't exactly the fun bit]. anyway after dance i went for cinderella. the stoopid person selling the programmes was late. so i had to go all the way out during the interval to buy the prog. and i saw beatrice. and xu jie. kellie's so good. everyone in cinderella was so good. the dragonflies and crickets were so cute. sharona was cute. sarah was good. samantha was cute. but the red shoes was still nicer.

after cinderella i went to suntec to meet sam char jas and shell for the night show of cinderella [again]. then when i reached it was 5.30 and we arranged to meet @ 5.00 so i thought i was the only one who was late and then i called char and she said she was still at home. and sam just left the house. and jas and shell were on the MRT. blegh. so i went to eat. and while eating shell & jas came. & then char and sam came. and i ended up being the late one. 'cos they met at tower records first. pfft.

we ended up eating at mac donalds. i kept on pinching food from the rest. heh. and ended up not buying anything. i took shell's leftovers. then when it was 7.00 we said we'd better get going so we tried to find the exit to citylink but we couldn't find it and we ended up walking in circles and then i said that maybe the exit was one level above so we went up and walked round and round and then we realised it was the second level. in the end we got lost and it was 7.15 and we arranged to meet lis at 7.30.

panick.

in the end we managed our way out then after we crossed the flyover [or whatever it's called] we forgot how to go to citylink. there was this HUGE sign saying citylink but we kept on insisting we didn't remember that place. sheesh. so sam asked this guy and he gave us the directions and we made it to esplanade in time.

relief.

later in the theatre then i found out that in the process of running my mum's handphone cover dropped out. bah. bought the sdt tee. so niiice. haha. the night show was so much nicer. jo hsi and audrey fell down while pushing the sofa backstage. oh well. then when toru came out in act three as the servant we passed lis the binoculars. and she just stared and stared and stared. and practically refused to give the binoculars back to me. and later on when jacek took of his top we passed sam the binoculars. and she and char kept on giggling like mad. sigh.

um, lis? audrey sent me a picture of toru. ask from me if you want it.

just a quick entry for now..'cos i'm having chinese tution in half an hour. sheesh. um, anybody called me just now? my dad said the person refused to leave his/her name. what the hell.

audrey and clique performed opening night yesterday!! so lucky. ok. wonder how it went. audrey u had better call me. i lost your home number. oops.

i don't want school to reopen.
i don't want to run some stupid 10 rounds run.
i don't want to fail my ballet exam.
i don't was to fail my chinese test.

sigh.

MY MUM JUST CAME IN AND SAID MY TUTIONS POSTPONED TO 2 o'CLOCK!! whee!!=D

haven't been updating for some days. changed my layout. not that i like her alot, but who cares i like the design. fwack [learnt from jo]. tagboard on the way. so be patient.

just came back from dance. oh hell gawd, i nearly died. she made us do glissades, changements, echappes, 1st allegro, 2nd allegro, 3rd allegro, grande allegro followed by our studies. all in one shot. sheesh. all of us looked so pale. we're not going to survive our exam [which is, in 6 days time]. sigh. and then @ the start she was so pissed with us because when she walked in steph joanne and prissy were playing the piano and jas tasha and shell were just dancing and like talking @ the same time & i was trying to get the stoopid radio to work so that we could practice our syllabus work along with the music then she shouted at us and asked us why weren't we practicing. and then she said she didn't want to see a single mistake or all of us would just have to go home or sth liddat. hmph. some kind of teacher she is. pray that the class on sunday will be better.

haven't finished holiday homework. and i'm still here blogging. *panicks*. yet i don't feel like studying. my mum lectured me yesterday for slacking. suckness.

oh and, one last thing:

ALL THE BEST FOR YOUR BALLET EXAM JO!!!!

argh. just got my braces. upper jaw only. they suck so much. so ugly. erk. i mean it's not like the normal type..the stoopid rubber band only covers half of the stud. for some funny reason like my stud is diff. from other people. then my wire is like so hellishly flimsy. pfft.

anyway..uh, jolyn? CME project what time? what place? you haven't called me.

i want to audition for sleeping beauty..ahaha. but like i said i most probably won't get in. well i was in the nutcracker but most probably it was by sheer luck because they COULDN'T have chosen me based on my dancing. so i'll just audition and then i won't get in and i'll just crawl away and die..while all the strong ones from sc & other places will get in..sigh. life's just so unfair.

whee..my mum's letting me re-decorate my entire room. which means i can knock down the permanent table plus cupboard. more than happy. but now i can't think of how to design. ideas, anyone?

anyway joey..found something for you. [layouts-layouts featuring dance-unattainable perfection layout]. well you don't have to chose that one but i thought it was the nicest among all the dance ones..personally i liked it alot but i'm using blogspot so it doesn't work..sad.

ahh audrey's in cinderella no fair. haha. she's dancing on opening night and closing night..whee gonna watch her on closing night. =). her whole clique also got in. aiyah they all very small lah. [well not offence. hehh]

won't be blogging that often during school hols. i'm dead busy. so yep. bear with the deadness of my blog for a while.

didn't get chosen for new zealand..sad. oh well..there's always next year right? sob. anyway shan't elaborate about that. i'm not that disppointed 'cos i didn't really have high hopes about getting it in the first place.

then went for dance yesterday. the whole place was SO deserted 'cos the sec twos had OM then lis didn't come 'cos she had piano exam. after dance tasha, val and michelle came over to dance [play more like it]..then they stayed until really late. val was supposed to go for church but it was raining so heavily then she had no idea how to go to marine parade so she stayed on. then after we came up from the squash court everyone was stuck @ my house as michelle's mum was working until 10+ then val didn't know how to go home and tasha's dad didn't answer the phone so we were like how how how?? in the end they stayed for dinner then tasha's was like, erm..the wind's blowing and its pretty dark so i'll just keep by your side. haha then we went to my room and started talking and fooling around. yup. and then val just said that she'd take a taxi home and all of us shouted NO at the same time. so we started inventing all sort of things that might happen [some more it was really dark and stuff like that]. then val was like no lah god wouldn't want her to die and stuff like that. next we started talking about sutff like angels entering the house and we got so freaked out..blegh. so i asked michelle if she could sleep over so when she asked her mum her mum asked why so she said: 'cos tingzhi's scared of god and angels. freak! made me sound so stoopid..haha then in the end val went home by taxi and we were really worried for her 'cos she just called her dad and her dad screamed at her for not going to church. well she didn't come for ballet today..hope all's well. ok this entry is so long. without paragraphing. heh. anyway made up with her already. =).

oh sheesh. i am no longer speaking to her. [except for during heats, i was forced to, NOT self volunteerey] just because of the freaking lit. project. shan't elaborate on how it happened. i'm pissed. i don't care about anything now. we can continue not talking to each other. i don't give a damn at the moment. argh. let's just hope that i'll cool down after some time. pffft. and i've got the sickening feeling that those on her side are blocking me on msn. argh whatever. suckness.

and we did badly in heats. and she just had to be running. and i didn't really bother to cheer her on. so our class got last. whatever. anyway i'm thankful that march hols are here. don't have to see her sickening face for one whole week. oh shit, i just remembered i have to meet her to do our IPW project. ugh. now i can't have a peaceful holiday. it's so depressing to see that yucky face of hers. and hear her yucky voice. i'll probably delete this after we're ok again. but heck care, we are NOT OKAY now. i am 101% agaisnt her now. and hopefully she reads this. and she can don't care for all she wants after reading this. i don't care also. at least i feel much better after letting all this out. i'm so tempremental. and i hate it. freakness.

oh darn, someone's impersonating me and joey. sheesh. such freaks.

anyway just came back from coaching class. there's this new girl in our class [not exactly new..just that it's the first time she's coming to the wed class i think]. her names gladys or something. can dance so well. primary 5 only. hee. she does gym too..yep. then representing singapore in sea games next next year or something like that. you go girl!

can't wait for march hols. fully packed already. yep. monday i have chinese tution..then tuesday putting braces. then wednesday have dance from 2.30-5.30 i think then thursday have dance again from 10.00-12.30 and on friday there's chinese tution again..yuck. haha then saturday there's dance @ sc then on sunday there's dance again. whee! four times of dance. yep..so happy. haha.

my digi cam's out of battery. can't upload the pictures i took of me and my friends in balletic poses. sad. will try to upload them soon. =)

do i really want to go to new zealand?

i would have jumped at the thought of being offered to go some time back. but come to think of it now..my chances are practically zero.

i keep on telling myself to wake up from a dream. it's never going to happen. don't even think about it.

two whole weeks in new zealand. which dancer doesn't want to go? first week spent on studying and dancing. second week shopping. that's if victoria's correct.

even if i get selected [yea, right], i probably won't survive either. and mrs chan will send me home half way through to trip since i'm such a disgrace.

so anyway thanks to all those who have confidence in me..like jasmine, michelle and nat. thanks alot.

just changed my layout. yup. shan't talk about melaka trip, simply because i can't be bothered.

everything's against me. sheesh. i left my newly bought specs in the hotel room. at least i think so. and now they can't find it either. my parents called last night to check. suck.

went for dance today. did ukranian national dance. at least i knew it better than shao min, kerri-ann and caroline. yayness! i'm not the worst. xD. anyway that selection for new zealand thingy i coming. or maybe it's over. either way i still won't be chosen. mrs chan's probably revolted after seeing my dancing and now she's regretting that she let me in the dance group. and erm, went to the costumes shop after dance. made this new leotard..shocking blue. hawaii blue. whatever.

all i want is my specs back to go to new zealand.

just uploaded some pictures onto my picture gallery. the password is our class motto. so lame. haha..anyway can't wait for tomorrow. going to school with beatrice.

bah. this layout is getting so boring. i'm briandead at the moment. don't feel like making a nicer one. will make it after i come back from melaka.

don't feel like blogging at the moment.

finished packing my bag for melaka trip. yayness! my mum can't bother me anymore. haha.

just uploaded more pictures into my picture gallery, although i can't really view the picture i've uploaded. haven't figured out why yet. haha. i've decided to make it a private one. so if you want the password, come and get it from me. those in onegy..the password is..[fill in the blank, the word in the blank is the password]. our form teacher looks at the ____ when teaching. it's really lame but that's the only thing i can think of at the moment. haha..anyway it's just pictures of my school's dance performance. sorry about the crappy quality. yep.

dang, where did the pesticide go?? to sumone, BIG DEAL, i like my blog, and who cares if YOU like it? my friends like it, and i don't care one bit if you don't. and to icebar, so what if my gallery has only one picture, like it's your business to care, sucker. and to *chase, you FREAK. get lost and never ever come back again. don't even think you ARE real. hah!