just came back from dance. so little people went lorh. ahaha. i feel guilty. i should have been studying. anyway. havent been updating for ages. cant really remember what happened this week. thats why i need to blog on the day itself. aahh. ok never mind. i'll try my best to remember.

went to orthodentist on tuesday. now its glow in the dark pink purple and blue. yayye. so nice. =)

so yah, yesterday aletheias handphone rang in class [stoopid goon, doesnt she know how to set it to silent mode?]. ms soh confiscated it. gave it to mao. thn erm, carine sang this chinese song horridly outta tune i couldnt even tell what it was as punishment. and thn we set out trap again, the ohp falling thingy. so that the bottom part will drop. thn we went orhhhh everytime a teacher touched it and it dropped. hah.

today. mao started checking marks and erm..she left ten minutes early. yayye. so we started fooling around and yy bea and dunno who started planning this trap for ms soh. -evil-. yar..so we hid the dusters behind the class [you know those foldable desks for the computers? we hid it inside]. and inside the cupboards too. then we hid those markers with ink and left the inkless ones out. then you know that string to pull the ohp screen down? we chucked it up above the whiteboard so she couldnt reach it. aiyah then in the end ms soh got her revenge. sheesh. she made us wipe the whiteboard ourselves [purposely, i guess-she couldnt find the dusters]. then aries deb ruiling and aletheia started opening the cupboards looking for the dusters. then..she couldnt find any markers with ink lah but she happened to have brought her own [why?? why??]. spoiled the whole plan. and then she asked lis to pull the ohp screen down for her. gahh. fun spoiler. anyway, we did the same for maos lesson. only she didnt chose to use the ohp. and nfg gave the whole thing away. idiotic freak. haha those who know me well enough will know whos nfg. heh.

after school me and joey quickly changed to go for dance. felt hopelessly isoliated. only three sec ones went. ack. did seaside maksim and wipeout. yah then we almost completed seaside. yayye.

i missed watching maksim perform and chose to watch saturday night fever instead. heck. i dont have any regrets. yayye. saturday night fever rocks my socks!! really. im not kidding. you should go watch it. i bet its better than maksim. ahaha. really. i'm 100% sure you'll love it. read the blogs of those who went. they all said it was super fantastic. oops. nobody says super anymore. i forgot. [quote from the show].

You're stayin alive, stayin' alive.
Feel the city breakin' and ev'rybody shakin'
and we're stayin' alive, stayin' alive.
Ah, ha, ha, ha, Stayin' Alive.

i've oficially caught the fever. whee. go watch it and get sick too. get your tickets before its too late!! it's better than best im telling you. more than 85% of the audience stood up and started dancing and clapping along at the end. yayye. singapore audiences are so sporting.

"You've caught the fever, singapore!" Monty [Dale Pengelly], Saturday Night Fever.

i shant really blog about every single scene cos this entry will be damn long but anyway to sum everything up it was superb.

theres one scene that i remember really well. it was pretty sad actually. oh well. here goes:

tony: leave me alone will you! just give me a rest.
annette: what did i do wrong? what? all i ever did was love you.

poor annette. i dunno. sounded really sad to me. well after that she started singing if i cant have you. =]

If I can't have you
I don't want nobody, baby
If I can't have you oh-ah-oh oh
If I can't have you
I don't want nobody, baby
If I can't have you oh-ah-oh oh

really strong vocals. that woman. dont even know if shes human. heh.

i want to go watch it again. the dancers are so flexible. and strong. the foot work was fast and neat. makes me think about how uncoordinated i am.

You should be dancing, yeah, dancing, yeah

i miss dancing in the nutcracker so so much. i never really realised it but now i'm starting to. i miss the rehearsals that last until like ten or eleven at night. i miss my friend soldiers. i miss putting on make up. i miss the smell of the theatre. i miss watching the SDT dancer rehearsing. i miss getting to know knew people. i miss being on stage. gahh. and i remember that we got scolded for making to much noise. that we were asked to go play cards in the toilet. and that we were called the toilet soldiers. and that grace's skirt caught fire. that we could have countless free admissions. i miss all my friends. i havent kept in touch with any of them other than grace. [but like, its not really counted also cos shes in sc now. and i havent kept in contact with her until i saw her in sc this year]. i'm still living in the memories of the nutcracker.

i cant really remember what happened in school today. during pe we started cheering the first half of sy and gy cos we happened to have finished our netball game. dont think they heard us. stoopid things. so its like..yah. so wasted. heck. haha yup and ms phua got angry with the people who came for the poetry recitation thingy on monday. she was like..'they're not my friends. hmph!' cos like..she was supposed to teach this poem but they recited it to use already. gah.

i love my new layout. ahahaha. nice right? probably will be keeping it for quite some time. yayye.

woohoo. i just found some pictures of saturday night fever. wheee. go here. omg, i found out theres videos too. yayness. im on cloud nine. -smiles-

"I don't regret the rain. Or the nights I felt the pain. Or the tears I had to cry. Some of those times along the way. Every road I had to take, every time my heart would break, it was just something that I had to get through, to get me to you."

2.4 yesterday. thanks god it's only once a year. i got last in my group. 18:31. gah. wonder which idiot invented this running thingy. to embarass myself infront of all my classmates showing them that they can do what i cant. i hate hate hate running. hateeeee.

woohoo. i'm going for saturday night fever this saturday. night show. sititng right in front of joey, who's sitting in row d. whee. i've been begging my mum ever since the advertisments came out. ms deans said she's asking someone from saturday night fever to come and teach us. dont know if its still on.

anyway yy's being really nice and making me a new layout. this ones getting dead boring. boo.

auditions over. they only chose the twig like people, it's like, what the heck? so biased. anyway i've tried my best and i'm happy with what i did so yup. not many people from sc got through only. cheng gong and min li didn't even get in. suckness. for my group onli sara maria and yue yun got in. before the auditions i was erm, so so so nervous but everything went pretty alright i made two mistakes. sheesh.

yue yun missed her audition time, and she still got in. all that fwackness.

you know sometimes you feel that your best friends arent those whom you thought to be? thats how i'm feeling now. somehow i feel that my dance friends who went for the sleeping beauty audition are the people who i can relate to most now. maybe not all of them feel like this, but at least i know that some of them feel the same way that i do.

imagine all that fun that we could miss by not getting in; the long and demanding [yet fun] rehearsals, meeting the dancers, the thrill of dancing onstage [in the esplanade], the hard work, bringing delight to those who watched it, and so much more. it was going to be tons better than dancing in the nutcracker as a soldier. now it's officially over. just a far away dream waiting to be realised.

haven't updated since wednesday. don't have the time.

napfa. i got five As!! =). i seriously surprised myself. whee haha anyway it's over. 2.4 on monday. screwed.

my err..hand muscles? arm muscles are still aching. gah. they better not hurt tomorrow. which reminds me. tomorrow. the day. sleeping beauty audition. i'm getting really really really nervous i what if... i freak out halfway and screw up the while thing. or if... my arm muscled whatever its called still hurts. . or if... i lose my balance and fall klutzily. ahhhh. i'm psyching myself. on a happier note, i wont' screw up. i will grin [like an idiot]. i will have a..sparkle in my eyes?!

never mind. i'm brave. [right.]

need to chose people for some project thingy. everyone has a group. i haven't found a group. argh. cos like theres reshma and en li and nicole left and charlene and samantha. i don't want en li and reshma and nicole. especially nicole. bleugh.

Doctor Unheimlich has diagnosed me with Tingzhi's Disease
Cause:	self-abuse
Symptoms:	jaw dislocation, rotten teeth, frequent forgetfulness
Cure:	drink lots of water
Enter your name, for your own diagnosis:

haha ok that's lame. i AM forgetful.

today was hellish. in a daze the whole day. didn't really know what was going on. i even broke down once and the other time i was on the verge of crying. i don't know whats wrong with me. i don't want it to stay like that. to jane, thanks alot for tolerating with me today. i know i was acting crappy and rude to you especially during english i'm really really sorry. sorry if i scared you when we were fracturing our fairytale. i just couldn't help it. frustration.

my mum finally let me get the paid tagboard [you know, the tag board enhanced thing?] so now i can check IP adds. the tagboard doesn't look very different from the standard one except that all the old posts are gone [sigh] but anyway its tagboard enhanced!!

i didn't bring back my sewing kit also. and i still have that freaking satin stitch and the fly stitch thingy. gargh. i hate today.

not in the mood to update. bye.

dance this morning was pretty ok xu jies class wasn't as bad as i expected except i wasn't really in the mood to stretch. then we watched the primary school girls rehearse their syf item and halfway through ms deans asked us to go eat at the canteen so we went and i went to class to take my stuff for my parents.

anyway to jane i can read i know we need to do it your not online now so i'll discuss [sp?] it with you when your online or something like that.

um, yy? go fix your blog. i can't get to the comments page. i can't comment!! sickening you know. get it fixed asap.

"My life is a living nightmare
The dream will not to end
I cry over my broken heart
It does not want to mend
I am like a child in a day care
Always on the obstacle course
I go around and around
Until I finally get hurt
It always seems the same mistakes
I never tend to learn
That when you fall slightly
You fall until you burn
So tonight it will all be over
I plan to do it then
I will not be here any longer
The pain and fear will end
I start to and it hurts
It makes me cry
But in doing so
I feel like I am going to fly
Fly away to another place
Slit my wrists
To a place where I feel safe
Mum and dad see me there
As I watch from above
They read the letter that I wrote
Here it is, at the end it says with love,
I was here for just one reason
That reason was to be
The one that is here to get hurt
Unfortunately it was me
Love is something special
Please do not make mistakes
I was here for just one reason
And that reason has taken its place,
As mum and dad start to cry
They say they never knew
They yell out
If you had of told us we would have helped you
At that moment I realised
I died for love, a stupid thing
I could've been helped
I had so many hopes and dreams."

i didn't really have time to update yesterday anyway in the morning yesterday someone said that mr teh was mohpeng head then me and bea were like what's mohpeng? haha anyway we found our from jo so we started using it in practically every of our sentences which turned out to be really lame.

shan't really write about dance- go and read joeys blog. she wrote the stuff that i was planning to write. learnt more of that dance. maksin or maksim or something like that. dunno how to spell. haha. major class was fun but like all of the older girls were SO unfriendly? oh fack.

anyway then after dinner me and my mom went swimming in the dark it was so so fun but pretty freaky also i kept on scaring myself by saying stuff like that dark shadow down there must be a shark. haha then we swam for at least two hours when i went up it was already 11.00pm thats probably the latest i've stayed up so far this year. xD.

today was fun too. went to sonata to get tights. my current ones are in horrible condition [you cant even wear them anymore]. the whole crotch from the start to the end practically ripped apart and theres this big tear from my knee to somewhere just above my ankle and the other pair is white in color and i can roll it up like transition tights even though it isn't and theres this 2 inch wide hole somewhere above my knee. [it shows that i work hard, you know]

bought loads of stuff for myself. i think my mom spent at least $250 on the stuff she bought for me today -feels guilty-. blegh. bought three dance mags. =) and then this swimsuit and stuff and then i got this water bottle for free [yayness! my new ones is dented in every place and scratched till you can hardly see the word 'dance'].

was hoping to go and swim today again but the pools being used for some party and i've got dance tomorrow. ack. xu jie will be back again to stretch us to our death.

"When you love someone, all your saved-up wishes start coming out."

ms soh was so so so fwacked up today. what the heck was wrong with her?? i have to admit she was kinda freaky but she was still so ridiculous. flidsufoisduofdsufisd

she made all three groups except bea's group to write out 25 sentences that were not in the shou ce and she said we better make sure that none of ours were the same. hate her. hate hate hate.

then she got really pissed with yy joanne & sam for not bringing their worksheets. ended up asking them to stand outside and squat and pull their ears. wretched [sp?] woman.

i'm trying to find a new layout. everything now a days seem so boring. fack. nat can't go to majors tomorrow 'cos of dance club. sheesh. anyway jas will be there. i hope. never mind. i'll go by myself. i'm brave. right.

haha anyway erm bea says thanks to steffi for waving. she's happy. ahaha.

nat:haha evrytime I see tat smiling face..I imagine you and ur braces..hahahaha..yeppie doodle.

that's what nat just said to me on msn. gargh. so lame.

i cut my hair. and everybody was saying that i look nicer with a short ponytail. :). char says i look taller. haha. i got a blister from wearing my pointe shoes. i didn't wrap my toes in tape. they were squashed inside my pointes and the rough surface kept on rubbing agaisnt my skin.

and to aletheia [again], stop lying and accusing me ok. it's pretty obvious. gurgh. deepshit.

nothing much to say. yy's kinda asking me to update. i forgot what i wanted to blog about. oh yah, um. started the angel-mortal game today. since we're gonna restart it tomorrow might as well say who my mortal was..almas. and i'm her mortal. lame.

i can't really remember what happened today either. this wierd guy called andrew mathews came and gave a talk to us about staying happy or something like that.

Gotta study for hist. bye.

"I was never one to patiently pick up broken fragments and glue them together again and tell myself that the mended whole was as good as new. What is broken is broken -- and I'd rather remember it as it was at its best than mend it and see the broken places as long as I lived."

pissed.

yesterday's concert was really nice. anyway, to aletheia. you can say whatever you want. tsk tsk. i don't really care anyway, freaak. diss me all you like.

haha anyway thanks bea. sucking bacterias sister and girlfriend went too. did you see them? ok. lame.

saw amanda-mae yuen ying yuen yi judith jolyn mrs chan ms deans and err..i can't remember haha. saw jamal and fu liang also. ahah.

actually i think its was even nicer than, erm..cinderella. won't mind watching it again. like all the dancers were really flexible and good. and stuff like that.

first item was..prelude. i think? can't really remember. my brian has evaporated. the music was..very nice. the dance was nice too. gemini wasn't that nice. it's was, er, obscene. shan't elaborate. santorini was very lively. =). then i cant remember what was still feeling you. verge of death was spooky. haha but nice at the same time. then like the three dancers were just hanging their bodies there like they were dead. and then i think home was..this dance with the beggar walking round and round? dunno.

-interval-

bird of paradise was this pointe item. but their tops were like those jazz dance kind together with tutus. so cute. haha. two of a kind was funny..and the audience kept on laughing. i cant really remember the rest. i think two of a kind and fear was one of the scary items. haha yup. then in the state of mind & soul was pretty nice. the dance wasn't exactly nice but the song was really nice. [you know its the music played by the piano, that we use for stretching during xu jies class in sc?]

and then the rest were solos by dan & xu jie. then finale. overall it was really nice.

went for grd 6 class today. ms pam was really nice. :). nothing much already. chatting with nat.

Had you been there tonight
You might know how it feels
to be struck to the bone
in a moment of breathless delight!
Had you been there tonight
you might also have known
How the world might be changed
in just one burst of light
And what was right seems wrong,
and what was wrong seems right!
Red- I feel my soul on Bret
Black- my world if he's not there!
Red- the colour of desire!
Black the colour of despair!

Les Miserables, The ABC cafe- red and black.

haha i'm kinda addicted to that song now :) anyway just came back from dance. did that jazz dance thing and we learnt this new dance that the primary school girls did. then after dance went to class with joey to get something but the doors were locked so we walked back by the long way cos i wanted to see if the chameleon [sp?] that me and bea saw the other day during recess could be spotted again. and i actually saw the same chameleon again. freaky.

going for xu jie's concert. now i have one extra ticket cos lis can't go. who wants to go?? haha i don't want to go by myself, and my mum can't go cos i bought two student tickets. die.

anyway having tution soon so maybe i'll update later. ciao.

i haven't updated for some time. yesterday i wrote this reaalllly long entry but my computer just shut down. sheesh.

i can't really what happened yesterday. i'm beginning to have short term memory..so erm, i'll just try to recall.

woke up at like, 5:15am i think? to meet bea at the MRT station. then took from tanah merah to toa payoh. saw so many sc girls after we came out from the MRT. then we didn't know which way to go but luckily we saw these two girls from 3gy & 3dg so we followed them. but shortly after we saw this group of girls from 2co & 2gr going the other direction so we didn't know which way to go so we followed them instead. they ended up going into this mini-mart. pfft. in the end we saw this sc girl who was a prefect so bea was like "prefect mah, must be correct." so we followed her in the end.

then we reach toa payoh stadium. i started handing out the class ribbons. haha. then just sat there and cheered practically the whole time. fack.

after sports day i had dance..still learning that new dance. then we did pointe. lis's blister broke i think? and she had no more plasters at home.

tomorrow's xu jie concert. right. and the OM thingy. good luck to everyone inside it!! i don't even know anyone inside it. except for the nice prefect. [larissa i think?] who let me escape from a warning the first time i was late for school..

"And you learn that love, true love, Always has joys and sorrow, Seems ever present, Yet is never quite the same, Becoming more than love and less than love, So difficult to define. And you learn that through it all, You really can endure, That you really are strong, That you do have value."

As the rain falls from the sky,
So have I fallen for you.
As the thunder longs to be heard,
So I long to be loved by you.
As the lightening bolts across the sky,
So my heart bolts for you.
As the sun shines beautifully and brightly,
So does my smile because of you.
For without rain, there is no growth.
Without thunder, there is no sound.
Without lightening, there is no brightness.
Without sun, there is no warmth.
And without you, there is no love.